So..yeah went back and RPed at Hidden Grass for a bit, twas good,
but unlike the old days no one wants to approach me and Kiba, because we're polar opposets when we're RPing, yet we're the best of friends ICly and OOCly, which is a turn off for everyone from old Hidden Grass.



Point A:
Me and Kiba walk into the RP, looking bloody awesome. (If you don't believe that Kiba can look awesome look at the update I did with a picture of him =O )
and we're all more or less-



Point B:
the rest of the people, who swore under oath.
that they would be IC, are exactly like the following-



So me and Kiba are pretty much both in the "Dear god what have we walked into" setting of minds

So honestly, with the mindset i'm haveing, is what do I have to lose if I start up a Ninja Village for major lulz?

I've already said that yes I know, but really I am thinking about it.
I made some history, of course tossing around the Forum RP back and forth when I have time, still haven't gotten feedback that I need. =O

Because I believe that something that's going to be awesome needs to be planned out,
It's like drawing or painting, you have an idea. and work on it for more then 30 minutes, in this case I don't want to rush anything, Because rushing is what made Hidden Grass look horrible. no offense to whoever built it,

but I heard that this was someone who tutored under or was a friend of the person who built and textured Konoha? and Hidden grass looks like poorly textured shit, excepting the part of the Village which was bought from Nakama's ye olde area and slammed together to look like a narrow path. and that is the ONLY place I like. except for the Moto house (That looks like a inbreeding area for fruitcake clowns of scientology, Darshe is the Moto clan leader and I mean it. it looks pretty but fruity. if I ever go back i'll take pictures to prove it) maybe and the bath house Kiba made.

as I said, I believe in takeing ones time with things to look glorious.
to quote Naruto from when I was playing Rise of the Ninja again earlier
"There's no use doing something if you don't go all the way!"
or so such.

I've had no training anywhere far from watching video tutorials and reading Texture design books. and pure raw experience just doing things my own way and doing texture art for friends. though I take myself as a Observational type.
These days I can play through a video game or look around SL, and just somehow understand and peice together how that was done and translate it into Photoshop speak.


In a sense it's more or less, It's like how Toph from Avatar the last airbender see's with earthbending, I see with my mind, or Photoshop/SL bending.
I can just tell in a video game how to translate it to Photoshop, or re-make something similar in a sculpting program.

Sooo...why aren't I a billionair of textureships?
Well I guess one answer is i'm happy where I am just doing what i'm doing now, XD

another answer is Frostie has a fear of success. ._.;
What are the basis's of this fear?

Fear that you will accomplish all that you set out to, but that you still won't be happy, content, or satisfied once you reach your goal.

Belief that you are undeserving of all the good things and recognition that come your way as a result of your accomplishments and successes.

Opposite of fear of failure, in that fear of failure is the fear of making mistakes and losing approval. Fear of success is the fear of accomplishment and being recognized and honored.

Lack of belief in your own ability to sustain your progress, and the accomplishments you have achieved in your life.

Fear that your accomplishments can self-destruct at anytime.

Belief that no matter how much you are able to achieve or accomplish, it will never be enough to sustain success.

Belief that there are others out there who are better than you, who will replace or displace you if you do not maintain your performance record.

Belief that success is an end in itself; yet that end is not enough to sustain your interest and/or commitment.

Fear that once you have achieved the goals you have worked diligently for, the motivation to continue will fade.

Fear that you will find no happiness in your accomplishments; that you will be perpetually dissatisfied with life.

To be honest when I think of the future and getting a serious job as a Texture artist or a Character Designer I'm truely terrified of being hired for Five seconds then being hit upside the face with a fan by a non-even-slightly-english-speaking boss and being fired.

Or not even finishing my projects on time and getting labeled as quite a useless person, Usually I tend to believe that if I am depended on for anything I will bring failure and misery to everyone.


Boy am I glad I got that out, Though one more thing if I may add to things I want off my chest and off my Computer as fast as possible.



I know it's been a while but I followed through. I hope all of you are rolling around on the floor screaming "MY EYES THEY BURN!"
If not I have pictures of Floyd when he was winging his wang around.

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DEAR GOD WHY DO I HAVE THOSE PICTURES!? Dx

Well now that i've made a fool and mockery of everything I know and love. XD


Back onto the Topic of makeing a Ninja Village for lulz.
I'm going to start working on textures tomorrow, and see if it carries through.
I've got some sort of Idea for what i'd like to see,

I preffer seeing a more "If you have to fight do it in RP so it can be archived for the masses" instead of-
"Omfglawlz I blast my Dragon ball Z wang at you and you die for realz"
sort of thing.

I don't see a reason why those who don't particularily like to RP fight or Fight fight can't have a way to Roleplay in the Village too.
Do Y'know why they call a Village a Village?
It's sorta big but sorta small and is full of what?
VILLAGERS!

Big small, some as big as your fist.
Farmers fishers Flower attendants and weapon smiths, caligraphy specialists and scroll makers. adorning Parents and Mailmen, Bridge builders for gods sake! and Merchants. Craftsmen and women too!
Sure, some of them could have been ninjas once upon a time,
but MOST of those people aren't 100% laser beam throwing Ninjas.

Truthfully. I just would like to see a place, where people could RP,
have some fun. and not go insane trying to figure out if what they're doing is incorrect or right.

I actually am working on a headband design as I speak. and it's looking pretty spiffy. and yes as I said before I am still working on the stuff for the Forum RP when I can. no woes on that. just waiting a little bit until I can get decent enough feedback. I can wait as long as needed to see that this goes with as little hitches as possible, just so that when it goes down the road it doesn't explode into tiny peices.

Some rushed things have miracles,
But if you have a roof shaped like a perect triangle and you don't want to be doused in a rainstorm when you peak outside, you put up a canopy, or make gutters.
AKA: Planning.

...now that Photoshop has crashed on me for the berjillionth time,

Oh and small bit of news RLness here,
Getting my hair dyed...AGAIN! =O
just touching up the Magenta of my hair,
and going to either add black streaks, make black bangs, or make the entire back of my hair black. XD

Why? just because it's the only color I HAVEN'T dyed my hair,....besides green,

This is the history of my hair,
I was born Strawberry blonde,
Faded into light brown,
Dyed it Red.
Faded into Auburn,
streaked it goopy dark blue.
Dyed it Flameing Red again,
Went Bleach blonde.
Went multitoned.(To later add Pink bangs)
Bleached my hair out again, and went Dark Maroon.(That was sometime last year)
Bleached it again earlier this year and dyed it Teal and Dark blue.
Faded into god knows what color, I can't renember.
Then two months ago dyed it Red/Magenta.

Also, sometime in the next two weeks i'm going to be kicked out of my bedroom into the guestroom which used to be my old bedroom when I was six years old because my Father has now gained a addiction to putting Hardwood flooring into our house.
Which, is pretty spiffy and koolaid and all that. but the problem is, even though I live in a family that has done construction on their own house for many years one would think i'm acustomed to a giant buzzsaw going off or, hell I don't know, a jackhammer 24/7.

But nope. Frostie doesn't like construction noises. ....and the vacume cleaner. hence why her room is 50% smells like a 90 year old man died in there and is liveing in her closet. XD

but...I doubt I have anyone liveing in my closet, Cept for a colony of spiders. unsure if it is spiders or just dead bugs.

I leave on this note.
My room is unique because no matter what I do, it's too warm in the summer and too cold in the winter. which is perfect for Frostie. XD
Until that bastard called summer comes and rears it's ugly face again, *Shakes a fist*

Sleep is now needed for the brain makeing!