She really is. yelling at me 24/7.

I apologize for updateing this so much over the past while.

just had alot of museing and finding awesome stuff inbetween work that I needed to get out of my system.

First is getting back into sculpting with Blender-

Murg has awesome Blender tutorials! 8O

I really thought that Murg was useing Maya or some alien device to make her sculpties. though as it turns out and that I found out a while back after talking to another person from Corruption that was hanging out with me and Kiba (Zakka) who was also learning from Murg about Blender, and shareing a love of Photoshop CS4 Extended <3

Reason i'm thinking about switching it up from Zbrush 3 to Blender for a bit is because it seems Blender handles ambient occlusion or rather global shadows, shadow baking better then the method I was useing with Zbrush did. but i'll have to test and see what I can do. really very much a newbie to Blender and I've heard how tough it can be ^^; hopefully nowhere near as insane and pressurized as Maya made me feel when I first tried it.

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Followed a bit of Murg's tutorials. and made something odd out of Blender. XD



Thing on the left is something I made in Blender. on the right an arm guard in Zbrush 3. I believe you all can see the difference in quality. just as well actually the one on the left is a low grade sculpt map [8x8, or 16x16, the uploaded image sized at 512x512. I suck at doing numbers i'm just remembering what I've learned so it could be incorrect. XD] and the one on the right is a high grade one. 64x64 image sized. divides also at the highest quality.

Sorry for all this gibber gabber here but short translation. I have alot to learn about what makes a high quality and usable sculpty XD
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got to see the providence RP sim. looked cool if not empty XD;
was good to see Shiro and everyone again, though even with hanging out with almost everyone. I still miss hanging out with the gang. D:
Jordies and Sixpences and Edbards and Yuges and Darkans and Saki's. 8O

I also got to watch a interesting movie (Based off a novel) with my brother the other day.

Sky Crawlers



There's no real way for me to describe this movie,
It's just something I had to watch to the end. left me full of curiosity...of things that I can't really understand or put into words myself. I don't think i've ever felt this way since the first time I watched the 1995 film Ghost in the shell.

maybe this is telling me something, that I enjoy being observant. and nothing else besides that. I like sitting in the shadows and watching others take action while I stay in place to record these actions when others can't. so when they look back they can see how far they've come and how much more forwards they can go.
yet I will stand still unmoveing because I like to make sure that nobody is left behind. I will neither advance nor fall back.

Guess that's why me and RP factions never do so well XD

observation, overthinking, unmoveing, rarely changeing.
then when everything's calm makes a huge unexpected explosion out of nowhere.

before I go back to work here's an awesome suggestion.

If any of you ever meet me in RL. don't ask me to cook ham.
long story short. I tried, burnt my fingers and nearly filled the entire house with smoke Dx