I apologize to those who wanted me on Skype yesterday (Darkan, Maybe Yuge and Sakiness ). or people who needed my attention in text conversation but didn't really get it or I just kinda dropped off talking. I just wasn't up to it wasn't in a overall great mood. and about an hour ago I figured out why.

This year hasn't been a great year for life if anyone's been reading celebrity tabloids or that kind of BS. though even for regular old cats, Boots. it wasn't a good year. but last night/this morning just made it more aparrent.

last night nobody else was awake and apparently the phone rang, I thought it was just part of the music I was listening to at the time and kept working.
it was actually my Uncle calling to tell us that my Aunt, My Father's sister had passed away. Yesterday I was thinking about my extended family, most of them live in Niagara falls. every time my parents have gone for a Funeral or a Wedding they keep saying how my extended family wants to meet me. since none of them have seen me since I was one or two years old and moved with my parents and brother to British Columbia.

I don't know what's going to happen yet so I'll keep everyone posted on if I'll be gone for long periods of time from contact, such as flying out for the funeral at a later time in the coming months or so. It might not be possible at this time. but if it is then I'm definitely going to fly out and see my family.

Just alot burdening on my mind right now so again I apologize if I seem more out of it in the coming days then usual.
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UPDATE-

Not flying out to the funeral since it's not possible with my Father having had to go back to work today. a two day drive to the construction camp. from what it looks like he wont be back until Christmas. and my mother has already gone a bit loony about it :X

so i'm back to being the man of the house
(My Brother's too busy to be man of the house XD)

being man of the house has cut into my Junon time alot as well.
I see garpghghtk "I'm superman look at me" notices and tend to go 'meh' and just wanna go draw more. or the more recent "Bewz fest" notice.
made me wonder if I should have ever hosted a bigass lagtastic event at the Echo bar.
then I think; "What about the oldbies who just want a nice quiet RP?"
so now my brain condones to sometimes liking that The area around the Echo bar is nice and quiet. means old oldbies can sit their old grandpa butts down and have a calm RP. and the newbies who are scared can ease into the plaza....if they ever get past ShinRa tower. XD

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Off the subject of depressing and slightly annoying stuff-

lately I've been tuneing into a couple artist streams that are live and interactive.
and sometimes recorded :>

The Bobby Chiu Stream
And
The Stephen Silver Artcast

these are so great, I like these guys' personalities.
(Whenever Stephen Silver's kids accidentally wander into his studio is gold XD)

along with friends encouragement (You know who you are <3) and these podcasts I'm picking myself back up and getting intense about art again! (Sorry I'll keep ending up missing Skype nights somtimes if it cuts into the Bobby Chiu stream! :< )

Every night on the Chiu Stream he holds a challange. one hour, you draw the theme however you want. I've participated three times now. never got any votes, and yet i'm always psyched to try again. and after I try the challange I just feel one hundred percent better then when I was waking up poking at Photoshop ^^

THEME: Big. Fat. Covered in drool


THEME: Superhero Creature



And I recorded a session of me drawing.
(Damnit Kiba and that damn fanfiction-like-comic-script of fail Dx)

I keep messing the recording up because I paint zoomed out D8
recorded the Tick picture too. will hopefully have that up soon. :o