XD funnest night ever.

Onto Museing!
I think i've mentioned this before, though as a re-watching through of the Bleach series, Mayuri in one episode/certian chapter in the manga pretty much sums up how I think I've been acting and what hinderance it's been to my ability to post.

"The average person admires perfection and seeks to obtain it.
But, what is the point of acheiveing perfection?
There is none. nothing. not a single thing.
I loathe perfection!
If something is perfect then there is nothing left.
There is no room for imagination.
No place left for a person to gain additional knowledge or abilities.
do you know what that means?
For scientists such as ourselves, perfection only brings dispair.
It is our job to create things more wonderful than anything before them,
but never to attain perfection.
A scientist must be someone who finds ecstasy while suffering from that antinomy."

The same thing can go for being an artist. at least in my eyes.
Even if it's pressured on by the industry. I never want to acheive perfection.

and even with RPing.
In this current timeframe of this year, when i'm around other RPer's I just feel a vibe of "I can't type fast enough. i'm not perfect enough. what am I allowed to do? what am I not allowed to do? asking them would just piss them off."

I sort of miss my old self. D:
trying to figure out where I went wrong. and how I lost the confidence to do things that was fun for everyone instead now of being afraid to even talk to a moderator or an admin about a plot or a character in an RP sim out of fear that I'd be banned for saying the wrong thing. ( "=_=; Grow a spine already Frostie!" )


*Slaps face* I can't hide under mommy Yuge's skirt forever!

....>>

<<

Or can I? :O

*hides under Vova's dress* XD;


Back on the subject of Bleach though, may make a character for the sim.
Got a few name ideas;
Either Niizdai, or Sponge. or Mint. :B
and sorta a appearance. Mint green and pink hair. and very armstrong sparkly blue eyes.

But I dunno what to slot her into, I'd say in a nutshell, She'd be a cross between,

Justin law from Soul Eater

I think Yachiru would be an unescapeable refrence +_+;


and maybe a bit of Ren from Fragile.



I don't think a video could really describe the feeling but here's the wiki description of her-

"Ren: A lonely girl sitting on a lurching steel frame, singing beneath the moonlight. Walking in the ruins, playfully drawing large graffiti, looking for treasure, meeting with cats."

now off to sleep with me before I sacrifice my brain to the overlords.